It's taken a while, but I'm finally getting around to it. This is the journal in which I'm gonna reveal a lot about myself. Not my name or where exactly I live or anything like that, but some things you may be interested in knowing.
First of all, I'm male. For some reason, many people have guessed I'm female when talking to me... not sure what to make of that. Do I act feminine in my chatting?
Second, I'm straight. Not gay or even a little bisexual. The only gender I am turned on by is the female one.
Third, I'm in my early twenties. For now, I'm not gonna be more specific than that. Hazard a guess on my exact age if you want, but be warned, I may not reveal if you're correct or not.
Fourth, and now we're getting to the good stuff, I'm from Norway. Yup, I finally revealed which country I'm from. Probably gonna update my profile with that info once I've uploaded this.
Still, this is all fairly basic stuff. You probably want something more... personal. And sure, this journal is supposed to give some inside-info on me, so here goes.
First the more innocent stuff. As most of you might know, I'm into anime and manga. I haven't watched a lot of new things recently (or even old things that should be watched), but I'm slowly finding more time to watch and enjoy more anime.
I also like playing games, though I'm not hardcore at it, and I prefer just having fun with friends rather than getting the highest possible level in some MMO (though I still aim to win when it's a competition!). My favorite console is Nintendo, simply for the fun family-friendly games they offer that can be played by many.
I have an education as a sailor (yeah, in case you didn't know, that requires a specific education), and worked as it for 2 years, but I found out it didn't suit me, so I'm back to school, aiming for something closer to my heart. Media. Specifically, filming and video editing. I like filming and making videos, and it's a hobby I, sadly enough, don't spend enough time on. Hopefully the spark will get reignited
And as you all know, I tend to write stories. I do have a goal/dream of being a successful novelist, though not in the kinky area, mind you. I prefer fantasy for that
I have a story in the works, though finding an editor to look it over before I try to send it to a publisher is proving difficult... Please wish me luck.
That's a bit about my private and professional life. Now for a bit about my background.
I'm Christian. Yes, that's right, I'm Christian and into bondage. I'll admit sometimes it feels weird, but I don't think it's against my faith as long as I don't have sex before marriage. And yes, you're assuming right. I've never had sex. I'm a virgin. (If you came here for shocking facts, this is probably the most shocking fact there is going to be, so you can stop reading now.) I'm a 20-something year old virgin, despite being into bondage. It's not as hard as you'd think. Basically, be the nerd that gets picked on at school, be too shy to talk to girls most of your life and be too late to ask out those you do get the nerve to ask out, and BAM! You're a virgin! And I think it's with sex like with alcohol or smoking. The earlier you start, the easier it is to get adicted. So since I haven't yet, it's probably easier for me to go without. Btw, speaking of alcohol and smoking, I don't drink alcohol (by choice) and I don't use any tobacco products (also by choice). Honestly, until I discovered bondage I was what you'd call "pure." Much thanks to my overprotective mother who didn't want me to watch cartoons depicting any kind of violence (she is even opposed to Tom and Jerry, thinking it's too violent...) or movies like Harry Potter. So I was an overprotected child, but through the wonders of internet, I found out about anime and bondage non-the-less. But I don't regret my upbrining. My parents, though overprotective, have always shown me love and has cared for me, and my siblings, though we quarrel, we all know we like having each other
I was taught basic things like being nice, speaking politely, doing my best at school (I'm more or less a geek with A and B grades. I even got glasses!) and other things which I think are dropping in quality in our society these days.
Anyway, that's that. Now for the part you came to read about. The bondage.
Ever since I was a kid, I found a fascination with tie-up games and enjoyed them, though others didn't seem to. It wasn't sexual. As a kid, I thought it was just interesting and fun. But when I found bondage art on the web, that changed...
I think I found the first bondage art on the web by the great
. I was drawn to it for reasons to me unknown. I looked through his entire gallery. I was hooked, but didn't really get what I was seeing until many months later, when I started browsing around more. Of course, I was under 18 and didn't have an account at the time, so a lot of artwork was inaccessible to me. But artwork of women in tight bondage always found their way to my screen. Boy am I glad I got my own laptop after not too long...
I've roleplayed with many people, both here and on a nice roleplay site called Nabbers Empire (NE for short, link here --> ne.bgagger.net/
), both more consensual and forceful scenes, almost anything from innocent tie-up-games to more hardcore BDSM ans sexual scenes. Sometimes, I wonder if the fact I'm a virgin shows, though I believe I've picked up what I need to know to roleplay well, at least. I often flirt with people to some extent, saying things like "oh, the things I'd do to you~" or "too bad I'm not there
" but it's just me teasing, basically, as I'm saving myself for marriage, and though bondage in and by itself wouldn't be out of the question (clothed bondage, mind you), sexual acts would be.
Some of you might by this point think I have decieved you with my "act," though I just want to say that if you feel tricked, you have your own assumptions to thank for it. I can't remember ever outright lying about anything, though I will admit I've been very evasive and misleading sometimes.
Anyway, moving on.
For many years at first when I got into bondage, I felt like I was a dom. It was the default male role, I guess, and let's admit it, seeing pictures of hot girls in bondage does make you wanna have a go at dominating them
But eventually, I did some self-bondage. First hardly any. I hardly had rope, no tape handy, and really no proper bondage gear. Self-bondage wasn't something I did at a regular basis. Far from it. But during the beginning of this year, something changed. I did more self-bondage. I wanted to be tied up more myself. I started checking up more artwork of guys in bondage too (with female dommes! I'm straight, remember?), and eventually, I bought more rope, some tape and even some chains and padlocks to entertain myself with. Of course, while I had more fun now and learned to tie myself up, it always felt too... improvised. So this year I purchased my first proper bondage gear. A selection of, among other things, gags, cuffs, a blindfold and a hood to begin with, but I feel like I'll expand my toybox soon. I use my stuff for self-bondage quite often, and while I still know I can be dominant, I've realized that by my very nature, I'm probably more of a sub. I like to help people and do things for others, and even if I'm dominant I still think a successful session requires the sub to enjoy herself. If she doesn't, I fail as a dom. Simple as that. So yeah, I might actually be a sub, though for now I classify myself as a switch. If I at some point get a girlfriend and find out she's into bondage, I think I'll be able to bend between my submissive and dominant personality depending on what will make my girlfriend the most happy. After all, love can change people.
Now, as for fetishes I have, appart from bondage, I do have a thing for chastity. The thought of having my very center for pleasure controlled by a Mistress is arousing, and vice versa, controlling a sub's center for pleasure that way. I also find anal play quite fascinating, and I have a bit of a foot fetish, liking the thought of being made to kiss and lick a Mistress' feet. I also have a maid fetish, enjoying seeing the female gender dressed in revealing French maid outfits, prefferably made of latex
Latex in general is cool, catsuits too, though in reality I guess it's not the most practical.
But the fetish I really have a love for is 24/7 dom/sub relationships. I think I could learn to like that either way, though if I got together with a switch, then I guess anything really could happen
So yeah, after that loooong ramble about me and bondage and what I like and such, it's time to end this journal. It took so long to get it written compared to what I originally had in mind... on the other hand, you can look at this as an early Christmas present from me
If you have any questions you'd like to ask that wasn't answered here, trivial or deep, feel free to ask. I can't guarantee I'll answer (for all you know I may even just reply with a "knock-knock" joke), but if I find your question interesting, relevant, intelligent or in general not too intrusive for my taste, you may be in luck.